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Ok, for day one and not really expecting to start my weight loss. I’ve done excellent. I’ve drank 2 20 oz bottles of water. No more dew! I worked out for 30 min at the Y. I had subway for supper and a pudding for a snack. I’m proud of myself and am going to keep the good work up. I’m going to use these blogs to track my progress. I’m doing this for me and my family.

I’ve been on here a few times. I’ve accomplished my goals at times but right now I feel like I’m failing badly. My husband tries to support but doesn’t really understand or know how and right now I know he’s disappointed in me. Here’s an up to date version of the last couple of years.
My highest weight was 277.5 and that was March of last year. In January of last year, I graduated nursing school and obtained my LPN license. I at this time was happily married with a 12 year old boy. I had signed up to do the Better Weigh program at our local YMCA. I, however, didn’t lose any weight on the program. In March of last year, I found out that I was expecting my second child. I thought great. I’m definetely going to hit the 300 lb mark now. I don’t believe in “dieting” while pregnant. Well, to make a long story short all I did was lose weight while pregnant. After I delivered my daughter on Dec 1st, I weighed 230 lbs which has been my lowest weight in years. I was really proud of this. Well, it hasn’t lasted. I’m now back to 268 lbs. It really sucks. I’ve been diagnosed with post partum depression but it’s not real super bad and I’m on lexapro for it. My depression consists of me just wanting to cry a lot. I’m really enjoying my daughter and most of my time other then when I’m at work consists of holding her and playing with her. I know from having my son who is now 14 that they grow way to fast. Here’s the thing. I’m really addicted to my mt dew. I’m a nurse and most nurses I hate to say smoke. It’s a stressful job. I work in a nursing home and it’s very enjoyable but rough. I work 3-4 days a week and am running the whole time I’m there. Instead of smoking I drink my pop. Today I did a big thing. I bought a pop this morning and then after drinking half of the 44 oz glass, I poured it down the sink. I now working on drinking a water. I’m going to the Y tonite and what was originally going to be just to pick up my swimsuit cause hubby and I are celebrating our 15th wedding anniversary on the 4th of July. We are going away to a nice hotel on the 3rd and grandparents are watching the children. I decided that since I’m at the Y, I better work out. I have no excuses not to go to the Y. Even if I had to take my daughter, they have free sitters for when you want to work out. Tonite her daddy will watch her. I work evenings so I can either use their services or her brother can watch her. I’m going to do what is so hard for me to do and that is to make me a priority. While I know I can’t lose a lot of weight before my anniversary I can start and continue it and make my life better and my family’s life better. It’s going to be hard work but well worth the effort. I need help with my willpower. I have a hard time keeping it up once I get started. Thank you for your patience and time reading this long post.

Ok, I gained 3 lbs this week.  It’s not the way I wanted to start my weight loss but I know why.  I, honestly, didn’t pay much attention to things.  It’s harder then I thought it would be with a newborn.  I never made it to the Y.  I never got any water in.  I was still drinking my dew.  I didn’ t eat much or snack but that is only a small part of the equation.  All I can do now is look forward and not dwell on the past except to learn from the mistakes made.  It’s a new year and I want a new me.  I want to be a better mom to my children.  I’m going to need the energy to keep up with my daughter and need to be happier to handle my teenage son.  When I don’t feel good, I’m grumpy and have a harder time dealing with him when he gets an attitude or trouble in school.  I’m going to make some realistic goals this week.  I really need them. I go back to work on Monday after being off for 10 weeks.  It’s going to make it harder cause I’m a nurse and it’s a very stressful job.  I’m going to limit my dew and implement my water rule. I have to drink equal amounts of dew to water.  I’m going to eat more then eggs and toast.  I swear you would think I’m still pregnant the way I’ve been eating eggs and toast every day.  It’s easy to fix and cheap. LOL!!!  I’m going to make it to the Y at least twice this week for a 30 min workout.  I can manage that I’m sure.  I will accomplish these goals.  I’ll try to check in here more often.   

Ok, didn’t make it to the Y.  I had a dr appt this morning.  I got released from the dr so now I’m okay to do everything which means that I can now go back to work…yuck!  I then had to go to my work to give them my return slip. I go back next Monday. Yeah for me!  The thing is that the dr’s office is 30 min north of where I live and work is 30 min south of where I live.  Anyway, baby was cranky and I didn’t get to the Y.  Hubby and son don’t like to be left with cranky baby. LOL!!  They are going to have to get used to it.  Other than that I didn’t do bad.  I did have a mt dew but instead of the normal 44 oz I had a 20 oz so I downgraded.  I only had eggs and toast to eat today.   I had two meals of them and thinking that I’m officially getting tired of them.  I will figure something else out tomorrow.  I also need to work on water.  I am vowing to get in at least 20 oz of water tomorrow.  Small steps will equal big results!

Ok, today wasn’t the greatest start.  It wasn’t horrible either. I did have a mt dew thanks to my 13 year old son who had Christmas money and decided to treat us.  LOL!!  I’ll do better with the pop tomorrow.  It’s my only real bad habit at the moment.  I know when I was pregnant when I was full I was full and couldn’t eat anymore.  I am still practicing that habit with the only difference being I don’t get sick when I get full now.  I am not snacking a whole bunch either.  For lunch today I had fried eggs and cinnamon toast.  Supper was spaghetti and garlic bread with cheese.  I had a chocolate milk today and the mt dew.  I have been living on fried eggs and toast for lunch.  It’s easy and quick to fix while my newborn is napping.  I’m going to try to make it to the Y tomorrow.  I can go while my 13 year old watches his sister.  I got lucky and my 13 year old son loves to take care of her and does a real good job.  Heck, my husband has yet to change a diaper and my son changes them daily. He loves her and there isn’t any jealousy.  And for all who wonder why  I had them so far apart. It wasn’t necessarily planned.  LOL!!  I am not complaining though.  I have the family I always wanted.  Anyway, my goals for tomorrow are no pop, trip to Y, and no snacking. 

Ok, it’s been like 9 mos since i”ve been on here.  Since then I’ve lost 43 lbs and have had a baby girl.  My little girl was born on Dec 1st.  My weight in January was 275 which was my highest weight.  My current weight is 232.  My highest pregnancy weight was 262.  I lost more weight during my pregnancy then I gained and I didn’t try to lose. I don’t believe you should diet while pregnant.  I’m not complaining because I’m smaller now then I have been in years.  The thing is that I want to continue the losing.   I’m going back to work on the 4th of January so i need to get my act together now and think like I want to lose. I do have a Y membership but I need to find the motivation to go.  It’s hard when caring for a newborn, a 13 year old (yes, my kids are 13 years apart…lol), taking care of house, and now I’ll be adding a full time job to it as well.  I’m a nurse in a nursing home.  Yes, I’m married but hubby and I work different shifts so we don’t have to pay for a sitter or put Kaylee into daycare.  My Y has a baby sitter thing for members but I’m not going to trust people to look after her that isn’t family.  Yes, I’m overprotective.  LOL!!!  I could take her into the ladies fitness room and watch her while I work out as long as she will be content in her carseat.  She’s a good baby.  She only cries when she’s hungry.  So I’m going to try to come on here and blog and see how it goes.  The good thing I kept from my pregnancy eating is stopping eating when I’m full.  I just need to learn to get rid of the pop again and start drinking water again.  I also need to exercise.  We are getting snow here now and I hate snow.  My son is home this week so I may use him to watch her while I go to the Y to walk on the treadmill or something small.  I go to dr Monday so I’m sure he’ll give me the okay to move on.  I want to lose 32 lbs by June 1st which means a 5 lb weight loss per month.  I know that is doable.  It would put me at 200 lbs. 
Ok, thank you to all who have read.  It’s good to be back and no this is not a New Years Resolution. LOL!!  I was trying to lose weight when I got pregnant and couldn’t succeed.  My son told me if I were to have two more kids then I might reach goal…lol!!  No more kids for me.  I got my tubes tied.   LOL!!!!

The doctor confirmed it last Monday!  I’m definetely having a baby.  The due date is November 17th.  I’m almost 7 weeks along.  I’m so excited.  I have been having morning sickness and the works.  It’s okay with me. I miscarried my second one and had no symptoms so i’ll take puking over nothing at all.  Today’s my birthday so this is great news to get near my birthday.  I’m 35 years old today.  Yippee skippee!!  Lol!!!

Well,  just when I was getting serious, another kink came into the weight loss. I found out Monday that I’m expecting my second child.  I go to the doctor on this upcoming Monday to get verification but I’ve had two positive tests.  I’m really excited because I’ve wanted this for a long time.  The only thing is that I’m basically starting all over again.  My son will be 13 in June.  I don’t believe in trying to actively lose weight while pregnant.  However, I also don’t believe on eating for two either.  I plan on eating and drinking as healthy as I can but I won’t be paying to close attention to weight.  I miscarried once so I’m going to do my best to keep this one.  My due date should be sometime in November.  I’m really excited.  I want a  little girl but will be happy with a boy as well.  I just want it to be healthy.  Well,  I’ll come back and check in from time to time. 

Well, to start off with my weigh in.  I chickened out and didn’t go. Why?  I’m a big chickenhead…lol!!!  No, really it’s because I felt like a bloated whale.  I am due to start my monthly and I knew scales would go up.  As I said before, I’m doing the better weigh program at the Y and my mother in law had lost almost 3 pounds. I didn’t want to ruin our standings with a gain.  She skipped one weigh and so did I.  I should have gone though.  I haven’t made it to the Y to workout yet. Wanted to go this afternoon but my child saw fit to get into trouble at school.  He turns 13 in June and I don’t think I’m going to survive the teenage years.  

Food wise could be a lot better. The one good habit that i have learned is to stop eating when I’m full.  I just need to eat the right kind of food.  I’m going to work hard on that.  Yesterday, was frozen pizza for lunch and spanish hot dogs, fried mushrooms, and root beer float for supper.  Darn the root beer stand for opening up.  Heck, not a big hot dog fan so it may be the only time I eat there this year.  I do like the mushrooms.  The nice thing is that it is a small helping of them.  I have to eat out for lunch tomorrow because I got to go to work early for video’s.  I’m going to lose this weight. I want to be able to buy a nice a outfit for graduation.

OK, a lot has changed since I’ve been on here.   First, let’s start with the non diet news.  I obtained my LPN license.  I passed state boards first time around.  Yippee!!!  IT’s nice to work as a  nurse but a lot harder than I anticipated.

Second, on the diet front.  I gained back all that I lost and about five more. I topped out at 275 but am back down to 268 in the last month.  It’s been hard.  I have graduation on May 14th and I so badly want to lose another 20 pounds.  It’s over two months away and I think I can do it but I really need to get motivated to do it.  I got my Y membership back but don’t use it to my advantage.  Food is for convience.  Nursing is ten times harder than I thought and I come home and am exhausted.  I work 2nd shift but love to sleep in late in the morning. I really need to get my butt in gear and lose this.  This week I’m going to work hard on food and exercise. I have no excuses really not to get it done. I’m going to the Y tomorrow for my weigh in and am expecting a gain.  I’m going to workout while I’m there.  I will work out Monday as well. I’m off on Wednesday and will work out then as well.  I’m involved in the better weigh program with my mother in law at the Y.  With this program, you get a personal trainer. Or should i say you are supposed to get one. We got more of a coach but I’m not getting much from him.  He’s been successful with the program and lost a lot but we really wanted someone who would push us in the exercise portion of weight loss.  I’m also frustrated because even to get together with him isn’t really possible for me.  He is only available in the evenings when I’m at work.  I told them that I needed to have a daytime trainer.  We are going to sign up for it again but I’m going to stress more of what I want and hopefully we’ll get what we ask for.  I want to be successful.  I want to lose this weight.  It’s up to me to make it work.  I’m going to get to the Y three times this week and not eat out.  I will accomplish my goals.