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I’m so tired of snow.  They called my son’s school off and sent my hubby home.  The walls have gotten smaller and smaller.  IT’s amazing.  We can stay home all day and not going anywhere and be fine.  Let the weather turn bad and we are all stuck in the house and we are ready to kill each other.  They have a snow emergency out for our city so you are not supposed to be out which my hubby ignored and went to his parents across town.   Anyway, more power to him. I’m not in the mood to visit.

I’ve done really well today diet wise. I bought snacks yesterday but haven’t really touched them. I had chips and dip once and fruit. 
I did get enrolled for a class by doing it online that I was waiting for in the fall. I was upset because they weren’t offering it at first and now they are so I signed up.  The anatomy classes go fast so I have to jump in there as soon as possible.  I got in though so I’m ready for the rest of the year.  IF I get accepted into the nursing program, then I’ll be set for starting it and have just my nursing courses themselves for the following 2 years. 
Well, I hope all is doing well here. I need to get back into my child and see what trouble he’s brewing.

Things have been real hectic around my house.  I no longer have a job.  My aunt had to put my grandmother in a nursing home.  My aunt is thinking she’ll come back out and is paying me for a couple more weeks so I don’t go out and look for a job.  I can’t sit around and wait because our checkbook will drain.

Diet wise, I’m not doing to bad. I really am anxious to get weigh in done on Thursday even though I know there will be a gain. I am ready for phase 2.

I’m almost two weeks late on my monthly.  Three pregnancy tests and all are negative.  Getting ready for a storm tonite. We are due for 12-16 inches of snow.  We’ve not had that much snow at once in years.  It’ll be interesting.  Kind of nice to be able to stay at home and not have to worry about getting out in it.

Thank you to all who responded to my survey. I’m going to post it again for those who didn’t see it and are willing to participate. If you want, feel free to pass it on to friends and family and have them email me as well.  I need as many responses as I can get.  Thank you again!!!!

1. Did you spank your children?

2. If so, do you think it had a positive or negative impact on your children?

3.  What was the degree of the offense?

4.  If not, what was your reasoning behind not spanking?

Any help is appreciated.
My email addy is:

squiggly32774@yahoo.com

Okay, I can use every parents help with homework.  I know how?  Well, I’m conducting a survey for my English essay.  I would like parents who are willing to email their responses to me (please no comments left here). I will not use names in my essay but may use the responses.  In subject line please put survey answer.  I figure this may be the best place to get a good number of responses.  I’ll let you know later how everything turns out.  Here’s the questions.  My email will be at the bottom.

1. Did you spank your children?

2. If so, do you think it had a positive or negative impact on your children?

3.  What was the degree of the offense?

4.  If not, what was your reasoning behind not spanking?

Any help is appreciated.
My email addy is:

squiggly32774@yahoo.com

I hate snow.  Hate it!!!  The cold is depressing. I know the snow looks pretty. I did get lucky today. My aunt is sick so I get to stay home from work which saves me from having to drive 15 miles in this crap.  I know it doesn’t sound far but in this stuff it can take me an hour. I’m not confident in my snow driving abilities so I drive real slow.  I’d rather be safe then sorry.  I don’t mind driving in town but out of town is not my forte’.

Well, diet wise has been going okay. I am just not feeling phase 1 anymore. I have one more week until I can step on the scales and see how bad.  Honestly, I don’t think he meant for us to eat whatever we wanted but with no restrictions I did just that. I’m not going to dwell on it. I made the actual changes with what he meant to do in the book.  The good thing is that I feel confident enough to go onto phase 2 where we can at least weigh in weekly.  This waiting four weeks to weigh in has been a killer for me. I used to weigh in daily. Okay, daily may not be the way to go either but my thinking is that if I don’t have to weigh in for a month then my mistakes won’t show until then.  Not good thinking. I know this.  I’m ready to revamp my kitchen to an environment that promotes healthy eating and weight loss. I have to get rid of six foods next time. I’ll list them in my next blog. I don’t remember all of them I don’t think. Okay, I’ll try:

1. Trans fats

2. Fried foods

3. Soda pop

4. regular pasta

5. white bread

6. High Fat Dairy

Okay, I had to go look up the last one. It’s the only one I remember.  Considering that I don’t eat to much dairy, I’m not to worried about it.  I’m not worried about to much except trans fat and pasta. I have never gone out of my way to avoid the trans fat and I love my pasta.  I can have whole wheat so it may not be so much a thing of going without but making healthier changes.  No one said this is going to be easy.
Weight loss is a lot about making the right choices.  In order to succeed, we have to make the choices that will help us reach our goal.  I’ve made the right choice to do it now I have to make the choices to make it happen.  I’m ready and this week can’t end none to soon for me.

One more week until weigh in and start of phase 2.  I’m so looking forward to it.  This phase has been easy but to be honest has seemed pointless and a huge step back.  I’m hoping that the step back will mean bigger results in phase 2 and maybe that was the purpose for phase 1. 

Today wasn’t a good day at all.  Hubby really upset me to no end.  He broke my heart and i don’t even think he realizes how much he hurt me.  I had my dean’s list party today.  It was something minor really but it was a huge deal for me.  Jason was supposed to go with me but yesterday he made a comment that it wouldn’t be so bad but it was superbowl Sunday.  Well, for one superbowl wasn’t on til six and my party was at 2.  Plus, he has not watched one single football game all year.  We aren’t football fans. I was interested in it this year only because of the Colts.  I live in Indiana.  Well, then today I got home from work, took a nap, and then he came in to wake me up and asked me if I wanted to sleep longer. I said no because i had to get ready for the party.  He made the comment that he was hoping I’d change my mind. I literally told the man how important it was to me.  Well, I got upset and told him that if he didn’t want to go and support me then fine. I expected him to say that he’d go if it meant that much to me but no, he didn’t go and then my kid decided to stay home. I was crying so hard. I was bound and determined to go though.  Well, it sucked.  All they talked about during the presentation was the fact that it makes it easier to have family support and how good it was to see all the families there.  I’m sitting there through the whole ceremony which took less then an hour about crying.  Afterwards, they had refreshments, I couldn’t get out of there fast enough.  I cried all the way home. I went home and went straight to my bedroom and Jason came in and asked me how it went.  I told him that all they talked about was family support and it was meaningless for me because I had none.  He tried to convince me that he loved me and supported me but I told him that actions speak louder then words.  I was hurt. I felt like my family desserted me and didn’t seem to care that I was so upset.  They are more then willing to support my diet but not my schooling.  My mother in law said had I called her she would have gone but I didn’t because  I was afraid that she had plans and would say no and I couldn’t take someone saying no to me again.  It was one of those things that would have meant something if I had someone to share it with but I didn’t so it wasn’t worth a hill of beans. 
I know my  husband loves me but he needs to learn to do things for me even if it’s not what he wants to do.  It’s a part of being married. 
I’m sorry I vented so much. I had to get it out.  I’m really feeling much better now.  Thank you for listening.

I’m doing better then I was Thursday.  Yesterday we did our taxes and were surprised with the amount we are getting back. It’s great.  My schooling helped a lot.  It’s going to allow us to get to a comfortable level.  The only big thing our taxes pay is our property tax. Taxes give and taxes take away…lol!!!

On the diet front, I’m halfway into phase 1. I don’t feel like I’ve lost in fact I feel like I’ve gained.  TOM coming and being late may have something to do with that.  I am looking forward to phase 2 and getting rid of the foods.  Did I say I was looking forward to getting rid of foods?  LOL!!  I’m ready to make a positive change and to work my hardest.  I can’t wait til spring because I don’t make as many excuses to exericise in the spring as I do in the winter.  I hate the cold.  It’s supposed to be really cold here the next few days. I know yesterday you felt like an icicle when you went out.
We did get the part for the computer that we needed.  We figured it had been going bad for a while. Comp was doing silly stuff and the printer didn’t work completely and now it is. It was nice to know that it wasn’t something anyone person did. 

Anyway, I hope you all have a nice weekend. I’ve got the Dean’s List party tomorrow and I’ve got homework to do!!!  Any volunteers to help…lol!!

I have been so overwhelmed lately.  It sucks. I’m so behind in my school work as far as reading chapters go. I turn i all my assignments on time but it seems like this week everything has caught up with me.  We had computer problems.  Our computer completely shut down on Tuesday.  We took it to a shop to get repaired. They charged us 112 dollars and when we got home the computer still wasn’t working.  My husband took it back within 30 minutes and they did one more test and said the problem was the memory stick which is what the initial problem was.  Hubby told them to fix it and they said it was going to be another 100 dollars.  Hubby was like you should have caught it the first time. Hubby got mad left the comp there and told him that I would be in tomorrow. Well, I went right back.  They closed their shop 15 minutes early. I knocked on the door and they let me in. I told them i wanted my computer and my money back.  They reformatted the comp which was an extra 75 bucks which if they had caught the memory stick problem from the get go wouldn’t have needed done.  This is why they should have ate the cost of the memory stick.  THey told me the computer would work off and on. I told them I paid and had a receipt that said they fixed all problems and i should have a working computer which I didn’t.  I ended up leaving with half of my money back.  I promised them I would let everyone know about their horrible business.  The computer works without the memory stick and is fine unless you bring up a second web page and then you can see a big difference in the speed. It sucks. We are going to get another memory stick this weekend.  We can find one cheaper then they were going to charge us plus my hubby can put it in.

Anyway, now that I’ve blown that out of my system…lol!!! I am working on getting my homework caught up. The funny thing is that I have three assignments that need to be done on the computer so I needed it for that.  It’s one  reason I’m backed up. This semester has just been so overwhelming.  I’m two weeks away from starting phase 2 of my diet which is a lot stricter then what I’m doing now so I’m trying to relax and take a deep breath so I can get myself in order so I’m not going to fail at it.  I refuse to fail anything!