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I just wanted to get on real quick and post that I made it through surgery.  I’m really pumped on percocet at the moment.  I am taking one every couple of hours instead of 2 every four.  I ache but other then the ride home, i haven’t hurt super bad.  I was sick feeling after surgery but got medicine for it and got better.  Surgery lasted about 3 hours.  I found out I have arthritis in my foot. I guess it’s not bad.  The doctor did make me non weight bearing.  It’s hard to get in my house because of it but I’ll survive.  I’m using a walker because I feel more stable with it then I do crutches.  I will be skipping weight watchers and school this week.  I can’t see walking the distances the classes require. 
Diet has been not good today. I have not had a big meal.  Jason got me lasagna from a local restaurant but I didn’t eat to much of it.  I’ve been snacking for the most part.   I’ll survive my down time. 

I just wanted to come in and let everyone know that I didn’t eat at Golden Corral.  We had Bob Evans and I stayed within my point range as well.  I’m a little nervous about tomorrow.  I’m just wanting to get it done and over with.   I felt a little forlorn when I left work tonite.  I had a few residents who really where going to miss me.  I love my job!! 

My surgery is going to open so many doors for me.  I will be able to do more exercises now.  I’ll be able to run and exercise like I’m supposed to in order to lose the weight.   I will not be in pain and that is the biggest reward.  It’s been almost 7 years now.  I don’t know what it’s like to walk without having to watch every single step for holes, rocks, hills, or whatever else may be in my way.  I’m ready to do this.

Okay, I’m really wanting to just have a free day.   I think my nerves are taking hold.  I’m trying hard to get things done around the house before I have surgery tomorrow.  I really want Golden Corral.  The problem is that while I do have the point value for the food in my book that I have no way of measuring out exact portions and therefore, I could easily lose track of the points.  I’m not exactly sure I’m ready for that yet.  The only one thing that is making me consider it is the fact that I’m not going to be eating much tomorrow. I’ll probably be sleeping most of the day.  I’m really torn about what to do.  I know it’s got a lot to do with nerves and I could be better off making better choices then eating at a buffett.  I am only working 4 hours today and will eat my big meal after supper.  I can’t eat or drink anything after midnight tonite.  This is  a huge change for me.  I normally would have just gone and had supper there and not thought twice about it.  I’m not saying that i won’t end up there.  I will say that it will be a conscience decision with me knowing exactly what i’m doing.  I think there’s a difference between mindlessly eating wrong and consciencetly (sp?) eating wrong.  If I know I’m doing it before, then I feel more in control.  I can jump back on because I know that this is just a little discretion.  I guess I’ll just have to wait and see how the day plans out.

I did very well yesterday. I managed to use all my points except one.  The one thing I like about this plan is that I don’t feel deprived.  I’m not making major changes but small changes.  Small changes equal big results.   I went to Burger King today and instead of ordering a  whopper with cheese extra pickles and extra onions, king fries, and large chocolate shake.  I had a whopper jr with cheese no mayo, small onion ring, and skipped the shake all together. I had a pepsi one at home.  It was worth 12 points. 

I’m getting a little anxious for my surgery on Monday.  I’ve got so much to do at home and it seems too little time to do ti.  I’m wanting to get it done but now that it’s getting here and with everything else going on I’m getting a little nervous.  I will make it.

This title means more then just the storms that are moving into our area.  Today has been a good/horrible day.  I’ve seen all of the spectrums.  My day started out at my weigh in.  Weigh in was awesome.  I lost 3 pounds this week which is what I wanted to lose so that is cool.  I was proud.  I then got  a call on the way to school that Jason’s grandmother had a heart attack.  She has chose not to do anything about it.  They are taking her home tomorrow.  They are going to do what they can to keep her comfortable and that is all. They don’t expect her to make it past Thanksgiving.  I have to be strong for Jason.  He was for me when I lost my grandmother in March.  He’s got a brick wall up and I’m not sure he has really let it sink in yet. 
On top of all of this, I started my monthly which was actually a God send.  I thought I was due to start on Monday which is my surgery day.  I should be done with it by then so I’m good.  I also went over my points big time.  I went to Steak and Shake.   I didn’t have the point totals there so I ate and figured it out later. Had I not had the shake I would have been okay.  The shake was 16 points and that is how much I went over.  It’s okay because I do have the flex points and I have a week to work it off.  I’ll succeed.  I messed up but I didn’t fail.

I go in for my history and physical today at the doctors office.  It’s the last step towards my surgery on Monday.  I’m a little freaked out because my child told me this morning that my hubby said it was Friday which means he probably asked for the wrong day off of work.  I’ll have to call him tonite to correct him. 

I did good yesterday. I used all but one point.  Today I’ll probably use them all and run the risk of using my flex points due to a large breakfast.  My son and i eat out for breakfast once a week.  Today was the last day until I can drive again afte surgery.  I didn’t do bad but I did use more points then normal for breakfast. Of course, it isn’t hard to use more when I only use 2 or 3 pts for breakfast. I’m not a breakfast eater by far.  I am still highly motivated and have been so for a week now.  I’m sticking to plan.  This is a huge improvement for me. Of course, it helps to have friends and family who are doing this with me.  I know my sister in law, Stephanie, is a huge help.  We text each other daily our points and food.  It really helps with the accountability. I don’t want to text her that I blew it and went way over points.

Tomorrow is weigh in and I’m looking forward to it.  I know I’ve lost and am excited to see how much.  I never thought I would be excited for weigh in but I am.  Yippee!!!  I’ll blog tomorrow evening and let everyone know the results.  Tomorrow is going to be a busy day.  I have to be in Logansport for my weight watchers meeting at 9 am.  Steph and I are having lunch at Applebees afterwards because they have a ww menu on their regular menu.  I then have to be back in Peru (where I live) to pick up my friend to go to classes in Kokomo. I start my new class tomorrow evening as well. I will not be home until after 8 pm tomorrow night.  Mind you this is my only day from work until Monday. I only work a half shift on Sunday so that is great.  Well, I’m off to my drs appointment. Have a good day all!!!

I just heard from my MIL that my husband’s grandmother probablyhas cancer in her bladder and kidney.  Granny doesn’t want any treatment so we know what will happen.  I have to be strong for my hubby.  It’s going to be hard and I’ll be praying to God for strength. 

Diet wise everything is going good.  I’m not hungry though and that really doesn’t help.  Who’d think that there is a program  where you’d have to eat?  It’s getting close to lunch and I’m not sure what it’s going to be.  I’m not hungry after receiving the news I got this morning.  I made myself eat a bowl of cereal and I made it two servings to up the points.  Supper will be one of my frozen meals and it’s point value is not high at all. I did jump on my scales this morning and they were at an all time low so how cool is that.  It’s a little confusing because i weigh anked but I know what my all time high was so I can still track my overall loss which as this point was officially 20 pounds this morning. I believe I set my tracker to track my original high plus my weight watcher pounds.  It does mean that I should have a loss on Thursday morning.  I’m looking forward to weigh in.  I know there will be a loss.

Okay, onto surgery.  My surgery is officially less then a week away.  I did find someone to work the second half of my shift on Sunday.  Bless this girl.  She’s awesome.  I’m getting a little antsy.  I know I’m going to get through it.  It’s hard because I have to turn things over to hubby to take care of and that is hard for me to do.  I have the most responsibility in the house and that is because hubby doesn’t want it or just refuses.  I take care of the money, housework, child, work full time, and go to school.  Hubby works full time, takes care of kid, and does limited work on the house when I can’t fix it. Yes, he’s going to get an eye opening and maybe it will improve things. I just have a sinking feeling that we are going to be arguing over the 6 week period of time.  He’s never had to care for anyone who’s had surgery and has never had it himself so we’ll see what happens.  I’m sure we’ll survive even if it’s rough. 

I survived my first day on work on the plan.  I even have points left for the day. I even had KFC. Who ever thought there was a diet out there that you can eat out and still have food left to eat.  I’m not hungry and it’s late so there is no eating the last few points.  I know my problem and that is with breakfast. I’m not a breakfast eater. I do need to eat more for breakfast and then learn how to divy up the points between meals.  I am doing good though and succeeding.  It’s a huge plus for me.   I am going to make this work.  I’m hoping to be at 200 pounds by June 1st of 2008.

Yesterday was good for the most part.  I ended up using flex points for a pepsi.  I wasn’t thrilled with myself about that but up until then I did good.  I took my son to a haunted castle and forest.  It was good and made me walk.  There was tons of steps.  I’m finally feeling in control without feeling deprived.  I had ice cream as well yesterday and even had some today but my meals today for the most part are low points.  I’m going to do this and make everyone who doubts me wrong.  Hubby is doubting me but I understand why.  I’ve tried a lot of different diets and failed.  He has no reason to believe this one will be different. I will show him that I will do it though.  I will accomplish my goals.

According to my home scales, I lost 3 pounds this week.  It’s different then my ww weight due to I weigh in at home first thing in the morning naked.  LOL!!  Can’t do that at ww meetings.  The thing is though that if the scales at home go down then the scales at the meeting will as well.  I’m so excited to see my results on Thursday.

Okay, day one on plan was successful however, it had it’s bumps.  I know the first day can be the hardest. I did survive though and did not go over my points at all.  I had taco john’s for lunch and messed up with adding but threw away half of my nachos and fixed that.  Supper was domino’s but I only ate two pieces with no crust.  I normally dunk the crust in jalapeno cheese sauce.  Small improvements but they work.  Lunch today will be leftover pizza.  I’m going to have an even better day. I’m going to try to leave more points for the evening because that is when I get the munchies. I lived on pickles last night because they had 0 points.  I can only eat so many pickles.  We live and we learn.  I”m so excited and I know I will succeed this time.