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I know a lot of you saw Oprah. I didn’t but I did find this blog and thought I would share it with you.   It goes to prove the power that we all have to give support to each other and how much difference we can make.  Our support community we have here is very powerful!

http://www.diet-blog.com/archives/2007/11/30/women_loses_500_lbs.php

I’m so glad the weekend is here.  I have weigh in tomorrow and am not keeping up hope of any loss.  I had a pretty bad week.  I went over points. Heck, I just finished supper today and ended up at 0 points.  Not good because I’m use to an evening snack.  I’ll probably go over again tonite because I am hungry.  I am going to do good next week.  I’ll hopefully be getting my boot off and be back to normal and driving again. I’m going to get my butt in gear.  Here are my goals:

1.  Earn 7 activity points for the week.  This is only 15 min per day and very doable.

2.  Drink at least 2 bottles of water a day.

3.  Limit fast food.  This is for  more then one reason.  The  biggest reason is it’s high points and not so good for me.  The second is monetary.  It’s just getting expensive. I have food in the house and I need to eat it.

4.  Take my vitamin.  I am not good at taking any kind of pill.  I need to get back to taking my vitamin.

5.  Stay positive.

I know I can do this. I’m not anywhere close to losing hope but hate when I do things that i know I shouldn’t.  I get so much inspiration from all of you.  I come on every day and read every blog. I try to comment on all as well.  It really helps me.  You all are so much help and really keep me motivated to do my best.  Thank you!

I didn’t do so good today.  I ate out both meals due to school and I think that is what hurt me.  However we did get our final project for our critical thinking class.  I have to write 2 papers on the documentary “Supersize Me”.  We got our choice of a few different documentaries. I picked that one because I can easily write papers on it.  We have to write a paper for it and one against it.  Easy.  For because fast food is bad for your health.  Against because you can make healthy choices at restaurants.  I have 2 weeks to do the paper so it’s not to bad.

I did do some Christmas shopping today on my break and before school.  I walked around the store for an hour each time.  I figured that helped me to an extent.  I’m not holding out for a loss this weekend.  It’s okay though. I will make it a better week next week.  I’m going to work real hard.

Well, i’m going to go read some blogs.  I’m feeling kind of down tonite and hopefully, it will help my mood to read some blogs.

I really hope the guys finish up the homemade cookies I made tonite.  I’ve managed to stay within my points with them. I did go over yesterday due to a glass of chocolate milk. I knew what I was doing though so I’m not feeling to bad.  I hadn’t gotten in my points yet.  I had 2 cookies for breakfast and did have a great lunch.  I think supper will be simple because I have therapy this evening.  I also already took a walk this morning. I walked 15 min again.  It may not be much but I only did 2 blocks. I’m so slow a turtle could pass me.  It’s really nice out today and I would have walked more but I don’t want to overdo it especially when i have therapy.  Mind you therapy is not hard.  It’s just range of motion. 

I won’t walk tomorrow because I have school which will entail some walking in itself.   I only have 3 more weeks of classes.  I really don’t want to go.  I’m not thrilled with my classes this semester.  They are simple classes with no big finals or anything like that.  The one class is mandatory but the other class was a class that I took an elective.  It was a class to keep me in school. I didn’t really have any classes I had to take this semester to do with nursing which I was waiting to be accepted so I took this class.  I’ve done really well considering that I didn’t take any interest in the class.  My critical thinking class that is mandatory is different.  We have to write a paper every week but the teacher is different.  It’s difficult but not to bad.

I’m finding the plan easier to follow.  I’m getting nervous on weigh in’s though because I don’t feel like I’m losing. I feel like I’m doing well but not losing.  I don’t feel smaller then I was.  I have lost 26 pounds since June 1.  I still feel like I was then.  I had made a list of 50 things I want to do when I lose the weight but threw the list away because I repeated myself.  I need to redo the list.  I will try to work on that this weekend. 

I know Christmas time is stressful for a lot of us.  Shopping, food, parties, money, etc…!!  We have to remember how far we’ve come and where we want to go.  All of us got through the holiday in the past and lived.  We will do so again this year. I love Christmas time. I love seeing my son’s face when he opens his gifts.  I love seeing my nephew and neices’ faces when they open their gifts.  I love the  gift game we play at my husband’s granny’s house.  This Christmas may not have the joy of  the last few Christmas’ because my grandma is no longer here and Jason’s granny is in frail health.  I will honor my grandma’s memory and keep it happy.  She would be frowning if she knew I let her death ruin the holiday for my child.  She would be so upset with me. You can’t ruin anything for the children she would say. LOL!  It’s  a great time with lights and love!  I know we are having money problems too.  I’m not working and the credit card bill is going up and savings is going down.  We just got done paying property taxes in November that were $500.  Christmas in December which usually costs us big!  Saving grace this year because I started early.  I will try to finish next week.  Then in January we have house insurance which is another $500.  I’ll be back to work then. Medical bills are piling up. I refuse to let this get me down.  We’ve been in this situation before.  It’ll be a rough year possibly next year.  When i get my LPN license, we’ll get out pretty quickly.  The great thing about my job even as a CNA is that I can work extra hours.  People are either willing to give them up or they are just short handed.   I used to look at the negative side of things.  Not anymore. I’m trying to stay positive.  I know a lot of us are in financial hardship and a lot are worse off then me.  I want to look at things in a positive light.  Positive thoughts equal positive results.

I know I’m just rambling on.  I really appreciate everyone here.  Thank you for all of your support!

I took a 15 min walk today around 2 blocks. It was cold out but it felt pretty good.  My foot is aching a little now.  It may have been a little to much.  I had nothing to do and nowhere to go today.  I get tired of seeing the same walls over and over again so I decided a walk was called for.  It was refreshing actually.  I really want to make this weight loss happen.  I’ve done well on the food side but the exercise part hasn’t been happening due to circumstances beyond my control.  I get tired of sitting here and doing nothing.  I know when I’m able to exercise that I’ll be making excuses not to. I’m real good at that when it comes to exercising.  I have to make myself do it though.  Exercise is crucial to weight loss.  I think it’s good that the food for me started me off on  a good track. I think it’ll push my plateau back which is what I’m hoping for.  We all know that plateaus are inevitable.  It’s going to happen.  I want to lose as much as I can prior to that happening.  I don’t have specific goal times to meet goals.  Bodies don’t know dates.  I just want to lose steadily.  I kow i’ve said this before.  See what boredom does to me…lol!!  I get repetitive. Well, I’m off of here before I hear all of you snoring. LOL!

I made homemade chocolate chip cookies tonite.  They are 2 points a piece but I had enough points left to enjoy 4 of them.  I haven’t made them in  a long time.  I will eat three good meals tomorrow and fit the cookies into my leftover points.  This is why I like ww.  I can eat what i want and it helps with my portion control. 

The weather is supposed to be better tomorrow so hopefully I’ll get a walk in.  I don’t have anywhere to go tomorrow and walking will help me strengthen my foot plus the exercise.   I’m getting nervous that I won’t be able to handle work.  I know I’m not going back for at least two weeks.  I didn’t hurt all day.  I had therapy tonite, then went to the grocery store, and then made cookies.  By the time, I was making cookies my foot really hurt.  I also think it had something to do with the rain.  It seems when it’s raining my foot aches more. I just am concerned that when i go back to work that it’ll continue to hurt.  I need to go back because of bills but am afraid of the pain.  Oh well, I’ll cross that bridge when I come to it. 

I want to thank everyone for all of their comments on my blogs.  You all mean so much to me. It makes my journey easier.  Support is crucial to losing weight. I”ve tried doing it alone and can’t do it.  My husband was real leary of me doing ww.  He has seen me try and fail so many times before that he gave up hope of me succeeding.  However, he has finally seen me losing the weight on my new plan and has started having faith in me again.  My kid has never lost hope.  My sister in law is in it with me.  My mother in law is behind me 100% and so is my step mom.  I’ve failed numerous times but this time I’m doing it and succeeding.  I am on my 7th week of my plan.  I’ve never lasted this long.  I’ve set realistic goals.  I’m also prepared for the weeks that I gain or maintain.  I do my best from day to day and don’t let anything keep me from my goal.  I’m learning to handle cravings and am making myself drink the water.  I am taking baby steps.  I can’t wait to be able to exercise because I have a feeling that I’ll be kicking butt then even more then I am now.  I’m learning to take care of myself.  It’s going to be hard when January comes, I’ll have work, school, and family to deal with.  I’m in classes now but they are simple.  I start nursing school next semester and am going to be stressed.  I like to eat when I’m stressed.  I will stick to my guns though. I want my spa trip to Indy with Stephanie.  In order to do it, I have to lose 50 pounds.  I’ve got 37 pounds more to go.  I will lose that 37 pounds and will have our trip. 

Well, i’m going to quit ranting now.  Again thank you all for your support!!  I love you all!!!

I’ve made some big changes this weekend.  I’ve been eating breakfast.  I’m not a breakfast eater.  I very rarely wake up hungry.  While I’m not eating big, just a bowl of cereal.  I’m eating.  I had a serving of my husbands sweet and crunchy nuts this morning along with my cereal.  I’ve also drank 2 bottles of water yesterday.  I had water on Saturday as well. I can’t stand water.  It’s funny to watch me drink it because I gulp it down fast. LOL!!! 

I never got back out to walk yesterday because it started raining.  I won’t be able to today as well due to rain.  It really sucks because I want to go for a walk.  I was so happy to be able to do it.  It wasn’t much but every little step helps. 

Yes, you read right.  I exercised today. Ok, it was only  a walk around 1/2 a block but I did it.  I may do it again later.  I was slow.  It took 10 minutes to walk what I did.  It felt so good to be able to do it.  Hubby walked with me because I didn’t know what to expect.  I plan on doing this at least once a day.  Next time a whole block.  To be honest, I didn’t  stop at a half because of  pain but because i was cold. LOL!!! 

I know when I started on this journey that it was going to be hard.  Heck, I’ve done this a million and one times and failed every time before.  I’m not going to fail this time.  There is no way.   I do think it is important to realize what got me at my highest weight.  You can’t change old habits if you don’t know what the old habits were.  The reason I’ve gotten to my weight is:

1.  Yo yo dieting.  This is why I took the word diet out of my vocabulary.  The main reason that I reached my highest weight was because of the fact that I would go on a diet and lose 10 pounds then quit and gain 15.   This all added up.

2.  Emotional eating.  I would eat no matter what I was feeling.  I celebrated with food, cured boredom with food, and cried with food.  Food was my medicine. 

3.  Afraid to ask for help.  I didn’t want to tell anyone that I was trying to lose.  I didn’t want them to know that I failed which I knew was different.  This time I sat everyone down and told them what I expected from them to help me.  I also found all of you great people.

Goals are another great aspect of losing weight. I don’t necessarily do time goals.  I don’t have a date that I want to get at my ultimate goal.  Slow and steady wins the race and I firmly believe that we need to celebrate every pound lost.  My goals are:

1.  The only date one I have is my New Years Goal.  I want to lose 5 pounds and be at 239 on Jan.1.  I know I can do this. 

2.  I want to be healthy.  This is the ultimate goal!!  My family has history of heart disease and diabetes.  I lost my mom when i was 19 due to cancer.  She was obese. However, she was a transplant patient and was on heavy steroid use so I honestly don’t think there was anything she could do.  I miss her a lot.  I want to see my son grow up to have children. I want to enjoy my grandchildren.

3.  To shop in the skinny people’s clothes.  I want to wear stylish clothes.   I don’t think designers know how to make nice clothes for heavy people.  At least not where I can afford to shop….lol!!

4.  Take active vacations.  I want to take more active vacations.  Although this has not eluded me due to weight but my foot problems.  It will be easier when I have the weight off.  

I think it’s nice to be able to see where I’ve been and to see where I’m going.  We can do this!  It takes hard work and perserverance.   

I went into my ww meeting expecting a gain.  Thanksgiving, period, and not the best of choices this week led me to believe that my weigh in would result in a gain. I was happily surprised when I didn’t have a gain but a 1.2 pound loss instead.  I was shocked.  I now weigh in at 244.6.  I’m down 13.6 pounds from when i started ww.  I’m down 26 pounds from when I started my journey in June.  I’m excited about it all. 

I do have some goals for the week.  Water!!!  Limit fast food!!!!  I can do this.  This will hopefully be my last full week of wearing the air cast.    I go into each weigh in just hoping for a 1 pound loss.  MOre then that is great but I only expect 1 pound. 

I’m going to go find something to eat now.  I’m hungry.

Tomorrow is weigh in and I am not  holding out any hope for any loss.  Why?  Thanksgiving, bad choices, and TOM.  We ate at the new restaurant in Peru today.  It wasn’t very good.  I felt like I blew my points even though i really didn’t do bad.   I don’t know about anybody else.  I have to watch my points and I want to enjoy the food I eat because I don’t get to eat as much as I want.  I want to eat my food that I enjoy.  When I eat food that I don’t enjoy I feel like I’ve wasted not only money but points that could have gone towards something I actually enjoyed.  I hope I’m making some sort of sense. 

It’s Friday.  It seems like now the days are running into each other.  It doesn’t matter if it’s Friday or Tuesday.  They all seem the same.  I hope everyone else is having a better day.  Mine is kind of blah!