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Yes, you read right.  I exercised today. Ok, it was only  a walk around 1/2 a block but I did it.  I may do it again later.  I was slow.  It took 10 minutes to walk what I did.  It felt so good to be able to do it.  Hubby walked with me because I didn’t know what to expect.  I plan on doing this at least once a day.  Next time a whole block.  To be honest, I didn’t  stop at a half because of  pain but because i was cold. LOL!!! 

I know when I started on this journey that it was going to be hard.  Heck, I’ve done this a million and one times and failed every time before.  I’m not going to fail this time.  There is no way.   I do think it is important to realize what got me at my highest weight.  You can’t change old habits if you don’t know what the old habits were.  The reason I’ve gotten to my weight is:

1.  Yo yo dieting.  This is why I took the word diet out of my vocabulary.  The main reason that I reached my highest weight was because of the fact that I would go on a diet and lose 10 pounds then quit and gain 15.   This all added up.

2.  Emotional eating.  I would eat no matter what I was feeling.  I celebrated with food, cured boredom with food, and cried with food.  Food was my medicine. 

3.  Afraid to ask for help.  I didn’t want to tell anyone that I was trying to lose.  I didn’t want them to know that I failed which I knew was different.  This time I sat everyone down and told them what I expected from them to help me.  I also found all of you great people.

Goals are another great aspect of losing weight. I don’t necessarily do time goals.  I don’t have a date that I want to get at my ultimate goal.  Slow and steady wins the race and I firmly believe that we need to celebrate every pound lost.  My goals are:

1.  The only date one I have is my New Years Goal.  I want to lose 5 pounds and be at 239 on Jan.1.  I know I can do this. 

2.  I want to be healthy.  This is the ultimate goal!!  My family has history of heart disease and diabetes.  I lost my mom when i was 19 due to cancer.  She was obese. However, she was a transplant patient and was on heavy steroid use so I honestly don’t think there was anything she could do.  I miss her a lot.  I want to see my son grow up to have children. I want to enjoy my grandchildren.

3.  To shop in the skinny people’s clothes.  I want to wear stylish clothes.   I don’t think designers know how to make nice clothes for heavy people.  At least not where I can afford to shop….lol!!

4.  Take active vacations.  I want to take more active vacations.  Although this has not eluded me due to weight but my foot problems.  It will be easier when I have the weight off.  

I think it’s nice to be able to see where I’ve been and to see where I’m going.  We can do this!  It takes hard work and perserverance.