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It was rotten timing for Thanksgiving and now it’s the same for Christmas.  My period showed up in time for the holidays.  This may be the reason that the scales weren’t as nice as I wanted them to be yesterday.  However, I think they’ll be real friendly to me next week.  LOL!!  It helps that the only day I’m going to have trouble with is today.  No big deal.  If I overeat I’ll pick up tomorrow and move on. 

We are getting ready to go to dinner.  I’m going to enjoy the time with his family. Jason’s family is really cool.  They are all a bunch of  jokesters.   I had McDonald’s for lunch after going to the grocery store.  I gave my kid the drink.  He spilled his. LOL!

I want to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas and  a Happier New Year.

My Christmas spirit is coming in late but it’s coming.  We are having Christmas dinner with my husband’s family tonite.  Still no big plans for Christmas day but that is okay.  There is still something missing but neither grandmother would want life to stop.  So ho ho ho!  Let’s have a Merry Christmas.

As you can probably tell, I’m finally feeling a little better.  Thanks to the Immodium..lol!!!  Ok, I should have gotten it sooner.  I hate medicine.  I am supposed to take my Celebrex every day and I keep forgetting.  It may acutally help my foot not hurt.  It’s for the arthritis.  I have taken it the last couple of nights so we’ll see how it goes. 

I took my measurements this morning. I haven’t lost much.  I lost 1.5 inches.  It’s about what I expected with not much exercise.  It’s a given. You have to exercise to lose inches.  I’m going to try to work on that this week.  I did drink my water yesterday so that is getting better.  Yesterday was bad food wise.  I have started using Saturday’s as free days.  One day can’t undo everything.  I have all week to bounce back from it so I’m not worried. I’m not too worried about tonites supper either.  I’m sure I’ll do okay.  The great thing is that my MIL will not be offended if I don’t eat as much as everyone else.  She’s super supportive of my efforts.  My whole family is.  I don’t have too many sabatuers out there.  LOL! 

I’m going to go to the grocery store now.  I’ll talk to you all later.  Love you all!!!

Ok, my weigh in wasn’t as big of  a loss as i was wishing for but I did lose.  I lost 2 pounds.  I’m now at 241.2 which is down 17 pounds for ww and almost 30 pounds since June.  I’ll take it.  I am still fighting this stupid stomach flu.  It sucks plus I’m due for my TOM.   I’m not having a very exciting week so I’m going to go.

My son got very creative this year for Christmas.  I’m so proud of him.  His art teacher spent extra time with him after school for approximately 3 days to allow him to work on an art project for his dad’s Christmas gift.  He drew him a tiger with his dad’s name on the bottom.  It’s absolutely beautiful.  For my present, he wrote me a poem and printed it out with a background and all.  He put both my poem and his dad’s pictures in frames.  I wanted to share the poem he wrote to me with you all.  Here it is:

Thanks for a Mom

My mom is a worker
Friend, companion,
Nice and wonderful
Graceful and nice
How do I thank her for all this
With a new outfit
No nothing commerical will do

Maybe a couple of thanks
Or a nice handmade breakfast
A hug and  a Kiss
Love and praise

This is all I can give
For the greatest mom
In the world

By: Jakob with Love

Yes, I cried my eyes out.  It made my Christmas that is for sure.  Children are the best. 

Diet wise today went by well.  I didn’t eat a whole lot because my stomach is still acting up.  I had 2 bottles of water already and will get one more here in a minute.  I got my exercise in at work. I felt better at work tonite. I actually felt like I got more into the swing of things.  It was nice.  Starting next Saturday I work 6 days straight.  Welcome back to the real life, lol!! 

I’m going to look forward to next week in a positive light.  We do have a Christmas get together with Jason’s parents and his brother’s Sunday evening.  I have to take my son to the dr for a physical on Monday and hopefully, my final therapy session on Monday.  Tuesday we go to Jason’s cousin’s house just for a gift swap.   I also work Tuesday and Wednesday.  It’s okay though.  It’s going to be a rough holiday but I’ll get through.

I’ve got weigh in tomorrow morning.  I’m looking forward to it.  I’m sure my stomach flu has helped with the weight loss. I’m still not totally over it.  I’m okay until I eat. LOL!!  I had 10 leftover points yesterday.  You’re supposed to use all of your points but I just couldn’t make myself yesterday.  Heck, it’s going on 11 am now and I still haven’t ate anything.  I am drinking my pepsi one but that has been it. I have to go pay a couple of bills before work so I think I’ll grab a small sandwich out.   I have to work again this afternoon. 

Work is strange right now.  I’ve been out for 8 weeks and I’m completely out of sync when it comes to work.   I am scared to lift residents that I normally would have lifted by myself.  I am also hurting quite a bit.  I am going in hoping they put me one on one with the neew resident and I don’t care for one on one.  She isn’t hard to deal with really.  She stands and that helps.  The other aides have been great.  I haven’t got any slack from any of them.  Tonite is even worse because I’m working a group that I was trained on one time when I first started their six months ago.  It is the easiest group but I don’t know what I’m doing on it. Oh well, someone will have to help me. 

My goals for next week are simple:

1.  Get to the Y at least 3 times.

2.  Drink 3 bottles of water

3.  Stay within my points

I didn’t make my challenge yesterday.  I didn’t drink any water. I feel bad for it. I will work on this today.  I may have messed up one day but I can do better today. 

I hope you all have a good day today!  I need to go wash my hair and get ready for work. I’ll come back on tonite to let you know about my day.  Love you all!

I ended up doing one on one with the same resident that I watched Monday.  Now she was better today then Monday.  Either that or I had more patience.  Either way it worked well.  I am sore and hurting but that will go away.

I haven’t ate much today. I got pretty depressed over the holidays today.  I normally am in the Christmas spirit but this year I can’t.  I’m looking forward to next year.  Next year is going to be my year.   I’m going to graduate nursing school,  lose a great deal of this weight, and make things better for my family.  I think it’s going to be our year.  Yes, we have some bouncing back to do monetarily and it’s going to be hard balancing it all.  However, I’m going to do it.  I’m going to be superwoman for a year to reap the rewards at the end.  You know we all can do what we set our head to.  My  grandmother taught me to be strong.   She taught me that I have more in me then I think I do half the time.  I want her, my mom, and my grandfather to look down on me and smile.  I am missing them all this year something awful.    I have a wonderful family all the way around.  I have a great nuclear family, great extended family, and the world’s best in laws down to my husband’s aunts and cousins.  If I count my blessings, then I’m the luckiest person in the world. 

Another one of my blessings is you all!  You all have made such a huge difference in my life this year.  You all have inspired me to do my best and to stick with my goals.  You all kept me company when I was laid up with my surgery.  I couldn’t have gotten this far without you!  Thank you all so much!  You all make life better!

Ok, today I got some good news at therapy.  If I can walk into therapy on Monday without a limp, then I will get discharged from therapy.  Yippee!!!  The limp is now psychological so all I have to do is concentrate on it when I walk into therapy.  I’m going to work on it this weekend so I can get it gone for good.  I’ve done it so long that my mind just automatically makes me do it.  I hope that made sense.

Today is my 2nd day back at work.  It’s my first day on a group again.  I only have to get everyone up for supper so it shouldn’t be bad. I think i have an easy group so that helps. I hope I don’t irritate the other aides because I’m not going to be doing lifts by myself if I don’t feel comfortable.   I’m not out to get hurt again. 

Well, not much else is going on.  I’m surviving the challenge I set for myself.  I drank 3 bottles of water on Monday and Wednesday. I didn’t on Tuesday however, I did drink 2.  I just didn’t get in the third.  I’m feeling better physically today so hopefully that will help me finish the water easier. 

We let my son open all of his Christmas gifts last night. I know that it isn’t Christmas yet but we decided to let him.  Neither hubby or I are in the holiday spirit.   Jakob wasn’t too thrilled with his Christmas gifts.  He liked them but he didn’t get the one gift he wanted but we did explain to him that we tried.  He was okay with it all.  We sat and played a couple games of scene it afterward so that helped.

Well, I’m off to work. I hope you all have a great day and I’ll talk to you all before I go to bed.

I’m still not feeling 100%.  Me and the toilet have become good friends…lol!! However, I did manage to get on my elliptical at home for 10 minutes.  It wasn’t much but it was enough to break a sweat.  I feel good about it as well.  My tummy is hurting and I don’t want to overdo it. I really want to go to the Y but I’m sure they don’t want my germs.  LOL!!

I can’t wait until my Saturday weigh in at ww.  I love what my home scales say but it doesn’t mean that their scales will read the same.  However, the ww scales should still read a loss.  I’ll let you all know what they read on Saturday.   If they read what they read at home then I’ve reached a goal.  How cool would that be?  Really motivating.  I’m sure my not feeling good has something to do with it.

My aunt called me this morning and informed me that if my Stafford loan gets turned down that she will loan me what I need for books.  I’m sure I’ll get the stafford loan.  I asked for an increase on my credit card but it got turned down.  My aunt says that she doesn’t want to see me have to quit after all that I’ve done. It’s hard to get accepted into the nursing program at Ivy Tech.  She also knows my grandmother would want me to continue and finish. 

I know I’ve talked about this in a previous post.  My goals for next year are very important to me.  I’m not sure I’ll end the year at my ultimate goal but I will be lighter then I am now. I try to take it small steps at a time.  If I look at the overall picture of how much I need to lose, it gets to be too daunting and I feel like I set myself up for failure. I look at the little rewards along the way.  Like zipping up the pair of  jeans this morning that I couldn’t zip up last week. Yes, they were tight but they zipped up.  I for the first time in a long time felt smaller.  It felt great.  I have lost almost 30 pounds total since June and I don’t feel like I”ve lost a pound until the jeans.  I don’t see the difference in the mirror. I don’t get complimented on how much weight I’ve lost.  I was hoping someoone at work would have noticed but if they did they didn’t see anything. It’s okay though.  I’m going to keep pushing onward harder then what I was. 

Motivation will get you far.   It will come and go.  It’s a pesky thing.  I know I’m always on the lookout for something that will help me keep motivated.  Right now my eye is on my graduation.  I know 2008 is going to be busy and tough.  I won’t be on here as much and that won’t help.  I will get on as much as I can.  I have to work full time, go to school full time, and I have my family as well.  I will try to blog daily and read as many blogs as I can.  I won’t be able to blog on everyone like I have been.  I will still be here in spirit.  You have me until January 14th. LOL!!

Christmas spirit isn’t getting much better.  I know it’s because our grandmother’s aren’t here.  It’s different.  We tried ordering a gift for my son online but it was on backorder so I canceled the order in hopes of finding it somewhere else.  Well, they put a hold on your credit card so I have to wait until they credit the card back and it sucks because it will be too late then.   It’s just not getting better as far as the holiday goes. 

I know this blog has been all over the place.  Thank you for bearing with me.  I love you all and appreciate every single one of you.

I’m feeling a little better now. Stomach is cramping like it was.  I hate flu symptoms.  Yuck.   I did make some wise decisions for supper.  We ate at Wendy’s and I ordered a jr. cheesebuger with everything but no mayo.  I got a medium frosty but no fries. I ended up fixing another baked potato at home later. 

I’m currently watching the Biggest Loser.  Starting in January they are having a million pound match up.  They are challenging America to lose 1 million pounds.  I signed up and here’s the link for you all to sign up:

http://biggestloser.msn.com/

I think it would be neat for all of us buddy slimmers to contribute to that total.  Let’s do this!

Tomorrow I’m going to try to do my best to get to the Y.  I do have therapy which is exercise in itself.   I have to learn to push myself to be active.  I can be the laziest person in the world.  I don’t have a spotless house.  I would rather sit and watch tv and play on my laptop compared to getting up and exercising.  I know I can accomplish my goals. I have to do this. 

Ok, Bill just won the Biggest Loser.  His twin brother won the other prize.  I am happy he won but I want a girl to win the competition.   They are doing twins next time.  It would be great to lose like they do on the show.  It’s not realistic though.  They are in the environment that helps them.  They are taken away from the problems of the outside world.  It would be nice to be able to shut ourselves off from the outside world.  I would love to do it except that I couldn’t take being away from my family.  My family is my lifeline. 

I’m not feeling too good today.  I had to cancel my therapy session.  I haven’t ate too much today either.  I used a lot of points only because of the chocolate milk I had this morning.  It’s high in points.  It sure tasted good though.  I didn’t eat much of my potato.

It’s really weird this year.  The holidays are coming and I don’t feel in the mood at all.  It sucks.  I normally look forward to the holidays. I don’t feel that it’s going to be a downer for me diet wise this year.   It’s easy to get through something when you don’t feel in the mood.  I will get through.  I am looking forward to my son opening his gift.  The look on his face is always priceless.  I love it. 

Not to much is happening today. I hope you all are having a better day!