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I quit my job. I just had enough.  I got a call at home on Wednesday.  My boss asked me if I was calling in and trying to get fired.  She heard it “through the grapevine”.  LOL!  It was the final straw.  I won’t go into all that happened last weekend.  I’m hoping that I get the job at the other nursing home.  If not, then I’m off to apply for jobs. It’ll all work out in the long run.

Diet wise.  I had a bad day today but that is one bad day.  I’ll be right back on tomorrow.  We are due for a  lot of snow so I’ll be staying home.  I have homework to do and housework to catch up on.  I just hope we can get to our ww meeting this week.

Today started off really well.  I’m trying to keep up the positive attitude that I have been preaching about.  I got up this morning and got on my elliptical for  a short time.  I then decided to get a newspaper.  What a better way to get a newspaper then to walk and enjoy the nice temperatures.  It was in the high 40’s and gloomy but sure beat the heck out of the freezing temperatures.   I plan on  doing more today as well.  I’m going to win that bracelet this week.

Last night I had the munchies really bad.  Good news is that I did enjoy some without going into my flex points.  Yippee!!!  Positive changes and new habits are forming.  It is doable.  If I can do it, then you all can do it.  I’m off today with nothing to do other then go to my son’s wrestling meet tonite.  I’m going to fix meatloaf and mash potatoes for supper. Yummy!!  Hubby has been begging for the meatloaf. It’s not the healthiest but I’ll make it to make him happy.  I’ll only eat a small piece. Shouldn’t be hard because it’s not my favorite meal.  I’m going to use today to get some housework caught up and read my assignment.  Oh, I’m going to rack up those activity points as well.  LOL!!!

I really think a positive attitude is one of the key’s to successful weight loss.  I mean there are lots of components to weight loss and they aren’t necessarily food related.

1.  Positive attitude:  How can you lose weight with negative thinking.   YOu have to look at yourself positively and with open eyes.   Positive attitude will reward you with positive results.

2.  Non scale victories:  I think this is a key to keeping that positive attitudes.  Sometimes the scales can be mean or nonrelenting by either not moving or even moving up a notch or two.  You have to look at the other victories.   Take your measurements.  These numbers will go down and these will measure success as well.  Measure your arms, waist, hips, and thighs.  You also have the way your clothes fit.  Have you moved to smaller sizes or are your current sizes fitting looser.  How about your face?  Do you see that it’s slimming down? 

3.  Emotions.  How many of us eat because we are bored, tired, angry, sad, happy, or depressed?  I know my hand is waving high in the air.  We have to find things to turn to besides food.  Go for a walk, exercise, read a book, take a bath, or come on to this site and read blogs.  You’ll find out that you aren’t alone.

I just wanted to come on to let you all know that there are battles out there and we all can get through them.  Keep the positive attitude up, look at the nonscale victories, and watch your emotions.  We are all Losers!!!  We all are going to win the war against the weight!  We CAN do it!

I’ve been thinking.  Ok,  I know that is scary. LOL!!!  I laid in bed last night and got to thinking about what I’ve accomplished.  I’m in smaller jeans.  My double chin that was forming is receeding.  I’m exercising which I wasn’t doing before.  Heck,  I’ve lost 32 pounds since June and almost 20 since the end of October.  I am not losing fast but I’m losing.  I’m eating better and working hard.   I’m feeling better about myself.  I have great support and great friends.   I am making better food choices.  Like this morning for breakfast, I took my son out for breakfast.   I ordered one pancake, an order of bacon (3 slices), and a hot chocolate.  I only ate half of the pancake because it didn’t taste as good as I wanted so I thought why waste the points on it.  Secondly, I only drank half the hot chocolate as well for the same reason.  The one thing I’ve learned in ww meetings is if it doesn’t taste good then don’t waste the points on it.  In my case, it’s points and in other’s it’s calories.  If it doesn’t taste good why eat it.  Wouldn’t you rather eat something that tastes good.  I know I would.   It’s all about choices.  We can make the right choices or the wrong choices.  We can choose to eat tasteless food or food that we enjoy (in moderation).   We have to make the right choices.

Our ww meeting this week talked about habits.   We make our habits.  We are not born with them.  We have the power to make new healthy habits.  I know it’s hard but it is doable.   It is required.  We know what got us to our current problems.  We are the ones who have to get us out of it.  Let’s all work on changing our habits.    I’m going to work on drinking more water and  exercising.  I’m going to beat Steph this week on points. I want to wear that bracelet.  To be honest, the heat is on.  Our ww meeting members know what we are doing and ask us every week who won.  It’s getting embarrassing to not have won it yet.  I want to say that I won it.  So Steph better be on the watch out.

I also want our trip to Indy.  I have to get to 208 to make it happen.  I know I can do it.  Steph is a lot closer to it then me.  I am working harder then I was though so that is a good thing.   Indy is going to be a girls day out and so much fun.  It’s also well needed.  We are going to do it on one of my breaks from school after we reach our goals.  I have 30 pounds to go to get to goal.  I’m going to do it!

I lost 2.2 pounds this week at ww.  I’m now at 238.4.  Yippee!!!  I am out of the 240’s and reached my first mini goal.  I reset my mini goal for 225.  I’m going to work hard to get there before the end of February.  I’m trying not to set my mini goals to far away.   I am excited. 

This has been a long week.  I had two tests, one in each class.  I got an A on my fundamentals test but not sure about Pharamacology.  I am trying my best.

On the weight loss front, it hasn’t been too bad.  I’ve used very little flex points and have earned a few activity points.  It probably won’t be enough to beat Steph who’s a workout machine but I did do better.  I’m looking forward to weigh in this week.  I hopefully have at least lost 1 pound.  It’s not too much to ask. I want to get out of the the 240’s.  I’ll be honest.   I usually start slipping when I reach the 230’s.  I’ve been there numerous times.  I am looking so forward to getting out of the thirties in the next couple of months.  I’m not going to look at the 230’s as a stumbling block.   I’m going to move past it.

This last couple of weeks have been hectic.  I’m not sure I’m going to survive nursing school.  LOL!!!  It’s been a test all the way around.  I’m trying hard in all areas of my life while trying to keep a level head. LOL!!!  

Have you ever woke up to just know that your TOM has started?  It’s exactly how I felt this morning.  This was after a sleepless night.  I know I had to be up to study with my friend for our test tomorrow.  I also had cramps.  It’s cold and snowy outside. I have to work.  Blah day for sure. 

I stayed within points yesterday and did a little exercise.  Today I plan on staying within points but not sure on the exercise front.  I’m not wanting to leave my chair.  I hate these days.  I have to work as well.  It sucks.  I just want to hibernate.  The only good thing is that it is payday. Yippee!!!!  

I hope your day is going better.  Nothing real bad here just Blah!

I’m finally exercising.  Can you imagine that?  I am getting off my butt and doing it.  Yesterday I did the elliptical and my DDR workout. I was a total klutz with DDR.  However,  I kept moving.  It’s hard and I’m not coordinated. LOL!!    The thing is that I am moving.  I’m going to do my best to do something today. I really want to be lazy today but I want the bracelet.  For those of you who don’t know, my sister in law, Steph, and I have an activity point challenge going.  We both are following ww.  You can earn activity points.  We decided that we needed an extra incentive to exercise.  We bought this bracelet that says “A journey of 1000 miles begins with one single step”.  I may not have quoted that exactly right.  In ww, you earn activity points which are determined by your weight, duration of the exercise, and the intensity of the exercise.  Whichever one of us exercises the most, gets to wear the bracelet.  We started this at the beginning of the year.  So far, she has won both weeks.  I want the darn bracelet and the only way I’m going to do it is to exercise, exercise, and then exercise some more.

I still need to work on my food.  We had pizza last night and I ate to much.  I stayed within my points but I still need to eat healthier choices.  I’m going to make Saturday’s weigh in a huge success by there be less of me.

School is going to drive me nuts. I have two tests this week.  One in each class which I think is nuts considering this is only week 2.  I mean come on.  LOL!!!  I will do my best to pass the tests with flying colors.  I’m not too worried about the fundamentals class but pharmacology is another story.  It’s going to be the death of me.   It’s hard but I know it’s going to be the most important class that I’m going to have.  I have studied every day this weekend.  I am taking my book to work to study even  more. 

I hope you all have a great day!

The only way we can expect to lose weight and change is to make it happen ourselves.   We can’t expect anyone else to do it for us.  It won’t just happen either.  We have to work at it.  I’ve known this for a while but it seems like the last couple of weeks that I’ve let my guard down.  Yes, I’ve had plenty of excuses.  I had work, started school, lack of sleep, or whatever I came up with.  Well, while sitting yesterday in my ww meeting and being really disappointed over my .6 pound loss.  I got motivated.  I am going to have to work to make this happen. This means limiting my eating out, drinking my water, eating my points without going extremely over, and EXERCISE.   It’s more then winning the challenge with Steph.  It’s what is going to make the scales move and the inces drop.  I have to work hard at this and do it right.  Yesterday, Steph and i took a 45 minute mall walk.  I also got on the elliptical last night.  I am not going to report how much because Steph and I have agreed to keep our amount of activity points secret until next Saturday morning.  If we are wondering what the other did, then we will work harder.  We are just going to let each other know that we did exercise and what it was.  Not the amount or intensity. 

I am going to really work on getting my butt moving.  I have to learn to do all of this while stressing out. I have to learn to handle the stress.  It’s not by grabbing a mt dew because I’m tired from getting up early.  It’s not by stuffing my face full of food.  It’s by exercising or studying a little harder for that test that may be stressing me out.  It’s by coming on here and reading blogs.  It’s by texting Steph to get me through.  It’s by taking a relaxing bath.  It’s by positive self talk.  You know, the talk that we tell ourselves that we can do it.  We are worth it.  You know we are worth it.  I know I’m worth it.  I want to be the best mom, wife, and nurse I can be.   I want the world.  I want to reap all the rewards that life has to offer.  I don’t want to be tired and run down by all of this extra weight.

Who’s going to make our weight loss happen?  WE ARE!  Who’s responsible for our actions?  WE ARE!  Who’s worth it?  WE ARE!!! 

I was a little disappointed with my weigh in.  I only lost .6 pounds.  I’m not going to worry about it though and move on.  Due for TOM and had an upset tummy this morning so I’m sure that all had something to do with it.  Plus, I had a bad week last week due to school and all.   I’m going to pick myself up though and move on. 

Steph won the activity point challenge AGAIN!  It’s okay because that is the end of it.  LOL!  I’m winning next week.  We took a walk at the mall this morning after our ww meeting.  It was a good start to the week.