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I had such a great day today.  Didn’t get as much cleaning done as I should have but not too surprising for me.  I did great today in all other matters. I took a 40 min walk.  I stayed OP all day. Yippee!!!  It feels good to be doing good.  I had some peace and quiet.  Ok, I called off work just to have peace and quiet but I needed it.  I love my son but the noise level goes up 10 notches when he’s home.  My one child makes enough noise for ten kids. LOL!!  It was nice to have the house to myself though.

I am looking forward to getting the weight off.  I start classes next week and i don’t even think that will deter me.  I know it’s going to be hard but I can get through it.  I want all of this badly.  I want my nursing degree and i want my weight off.   I can make everything happen. 

My plans for the week are simple.   Water, exercise, and eat right.  I’m going to soak up the feeling of doing well.  I’ll relish in it.  LOL!!

Today is my cleaning day.   I hate cleaning.  If you could see my house, then you would understand that I don’t. LOL!!  It’s a mess.  I won’t get it done completely but I will get some done.  I called off work today.  I needed a quiet day.  I’m frustrated about other things though.  I need to get my eyes checked.  My head has been hurting all week.  There is no money to get my eyes checked.  I will have the money once I get the check from my loans.  Hubby won’t let me use that money though.  It’s not for that.  I swear he would rather have me suffer with the headaches.  I will figure someway of getting my eyes checked.  I’ll use the tax checks whether he likes it or not. LOL!!!  He’s not happy with me right now due to bills.  The bills aren’t just my fault but he sees it that way since I am the one who does the bills.  It’s an ongoing problem with us.  I do everything so it’s all my fault. I try to talk to him and he doesn’t listen. Oh well, we’ve been in tougher situations and gotten out.

Other than that not much is happening. I had an national reserve recruiter call me this morning.  By the time we got off the phone I had him laughing.  He was asking me about college and then when it came to asking me if I was interested in the military. I couldn’t help but laugh.  I told him I’m 33 years old and have a child and there is no way.  I wanted to add that I’m fat, can’t run due to foot, and just wouldn’t make a good military person.  Don’t get me wrong I have a great respect for the military and our soldiers but I am not cut out to be one of them. LOL!!!  

I’m going to try my hardest to stay on plan today.  I shouldn’t have a problem since I’m not going anywhere.  I hope you all have a good week as well.  BTW, I ended up taking a 20 minute walk last night. It felt good. 

I hope everyone’s weekend is going good.  Mine?  Busy.  LOL!!  My son had a wrestling tournament today in Kokomo.  He didn’t win either match but he tried hard and that is all we can ask.  Even the coach of the kid he wrestled  saw his improvement and told him.  I was happy that the coaches at this meet actually treated the kids with respect.  I’ve seen some coaches yell at the children and berate them.  SOme of them forget that they are children.

Plan wise.  Yesterday ended up being pretty good. I  went over points yesterday because I had a couple of wine coolers.  I will probably go over today due to having lunch at CiCi’s in Kokomo.  I will do better tomorrow. I’m supposed to work tomorrow but am not going to go in.   I’m going to stay home and clean house. 

I’m also going to make an appointment with the eye doctor. I’m starting to have headaches again and that usually means my eyes have changed.  I want to get my contacts back anyway.  THey make them now for astigmatism so hopefully they won’t blur on me.   

I need to get my butt moving.  Steph and I started our exericise activity point challenge and I have yet to rack any up.  We are doing this for two weeks since I’m not going to make the ww meeting next week.  I have a CPR class that I have to take for school.  Yippee skippee! LOL!

I wish you all luck on your week.  We can do this.   It takes determination and hard work.  We are going to have our ups and downs but we can’t get up.   A couple of weeks ago at my ww meeting.  This little poem was read. I wanted to share it with you all:

Start Over

If you’ve started out in pursuit of your goal and you’ve really tried with your heart and soul, but somehow things got out of control – START OVER

When you’ve tried your best to do what you should and you thought this time that you surely would, but once again you didn’t do good – START OVER

When you’ve worked so hard to follow a dieters way and you fought to win a victory each day, but one more time you went astray – START OVER

When the road to success seemed much too long and each temptation was oh so strong and once again you gave in to wrong – START OVER

When you’ve told your friends what you planned to do and trusted them to help you through and soon discovered its up to you – START OVER

When you know you must be physically fit but your hope seems gone and your stuck in a pit. That’s not the time for you to quit – START OVER

When the week seems long and successes few and at weigh in time your feeling blue, remember tomorrow is just for you – START OVER

To start again means a victory’s been won and starting over AGAIN means a race well won and starting over AGAIN proves it can be done, so don’t just sit there – START OVER!!

I lost the 3.2 pounds that I gained last week.  I’m happy with that.  Yippee!!

I’m pumped and excited about the upcoming week.  Nothing will get me down this week.  We do have a church mass to go to in remembrance of Jason’s grandmother tonite and that is not going to get me down either.  I’m going to work this week on getting this weight off.  I can’t go to ww next week because of CPR class but I will be good for the next week.

I hope everyone on here is having a great weekend.    We are all going to have a great week.  NO ONE will stop us from achieving our goals.  NO ONE can say anything to stop us. 

I hate being so tired and not being able to sleep.  I went to bed at 1:15 this morning and here it is 7:15 and I’m up.  I never get up until 10.  LOL!  I don’t think I slept a wink.  I’m so sore all over especially  my foot.  I did go to work last night.  I didn’t have a supper break because we were short handed.  I would sit down and the call lights would go off.  I would then have to get up. LOL!  I came home and ordered pizza.  However, I still stayed within my points range. I even had one left over.  How cool is that.

Today I get to go get my school stuff like turning in my nursing papers and getting my books. Yippee!  It’s exciting and scary at the same time.  I am a little scared that I’m not going to be able to handle this.  I pray that i can.

Tomorrow is weigh in.  I’m sure I’ll have some loss even if it’s just the weight that I gained back last week.  We’ll see.  I’ll report to you all as soon as I find out.  Hope you all have a good Friday.

I decided to go to work. My foot feels better today.   To be honest, I knew it would.  I was just mad last night and I know I’m in for a hell of a night tonite.  I’m working with a girl who doesn’t like to do the job.  The other girl on my hall, I’ve not really worked with so I can’t judge it. It would be nice if they found a 6th person so we wouldn’t be short but not holding my breath. I’ll get through. Maybe it will make my night go by faster.  I have the next three days off.

Ok,  I know I’ve told you all about my SIL’s and my plans to go to Indy to a spa and a girls night out.  Well, they are focusing on the spa we are going to on the news this morning.  Talk about a dose of inspiration.   I  needed this today.  My son and I ate at Burger King for lunch. I had a whopper jr with cheese no mayo but extra pickles and onions and 1/2 of a medium fry.  I  stopped eating when I got full.  It’s something that I have learned to do gradually.  Sure helps.  I got up late so no breakfast.  Supper if I have time to take one will be a lean cuisine pizza.  I still will have quite a bit of points left over.  Tomorrow we’ll probably eat at Golden Corral but I’m not to worried.  The scales really haven’t moved as much as I would like them to and I believe it’s due to my body not getting enough.  I honestly think that sometimes you have to cheat occasionally and eat a little more just to reset your body.  I know it sounds odd but I have ate too much one day and had a nice lost the next day.  I will make good choices tomorrow.  I’ll stock up on veggies and good stuff.

Hope you all have a nice day. I’m off of here.

I am upset.  This has nothing to do with weight loss.  Work is not being nice to me now. I got pulled to the side today and told that since I have classes that I’m getting knocked down to part time.  This sucks because school is not my fault.  In some ways it’s a God send, I will have more time to study.  I just don’t know what it’ll do to our bills.  They scheduled me 6 days in a row and my foot is swollen like crazy and hurting.  We are going to work short tomorrow because of a girl quitting.   It’s not a problem for me but one of the other girls is already asking me to do the one room for her because she doesn’t want to do it.  Mind you, her group is far easier then mine. I would switch her groups but I don’t like the idea of switching around a room just because she doesn’t want them.  She’s not one that would return the favor.  I’m thinking of calling my doctor in the morning and getting a note to skip work tomorrow.  I need the money but my foot genuinely hurts and i know I’m going to get the raw end of the deal with the group.  I pull my weight at work plus help others knowing that the favors won’t be returned.  I  am really frustrated today due to pain and the circumstances at work.  My MIL who works at the same place I do except in the kitchen feels that they are punishing me for having the surgery.  I can see this.  I work hard but no one seems to notice.  I am not going to stay there as a nurse.  I want to work for someplace that people care about their employees if there is such a place.  We’ll see how things go.  I need the advice. I know if I call in they will work 2 aides short.  They may be able to find someone to come in.  I thought it was mean to make me work 6 days in a row knowing I was just starting my 8 hours. I have Friday through Sunday off.  I don’t call off much but i hate making people work harder.  It’s some of the aides though that don’t know how to work as hard and I believe need a swift kick to make things work. 

Sorry about venting.  Diet wise things are going great. I ended up having 4 points left tonite.  I’m getting exercise at work.  I’m meeting most of my nutritional requirements that ww wants us to. I  got 4 servings of water in and all my milk and 3 of my fruits and veggies.  Not eating out has really helped.  I hope the scales say the same.  In my last blog, I mentioned Golden Corral.  The dessert bar doesn’t really appeal to me there so it’s not to bad.  I just have to remember moderation and I have 30 flex points left. 

I hope everyone else had a good day!

I survived my first whole day at work.  In some ways 8 hours is easier then 4.  Funny huh?  Well, I finish like I can complete my work. Tonite I have my favorite group so it will help tremendously.  I had a trainee with me last night and she did real well.  I don’t mind training people but I end up feeling lazy. LOL!!  I feel they learn by doing so I sit back and let them do the work.  It’s the best way to learn.  I know that is how I prefer to learn.

Anyway, again yesterday I didn’t use all of my points.  I ended up having 12 points left.  I’m on tap for having 11 points left.  I know it’s because I’m not eating out this week. I’m on my fourth day of eating home meals.  I had cereal and a chicken salad sandwich so far today.  Supper is going to be a chicken salad sandwich, yogurt, and pinepple.  Yummy huh?  LOL!!  I will eat out on Friday.  I may go to Golden Corral and I know not the greatest choice. I can make wise decisions with veggies and such.  I don’t feel like it’ll be to bad for me after being so low on points all week. I don’t want my body to go into starvation mode.  It’ll work against me if I do.

I hope you are all enjoying the New Year. I’ll try to get on tonite to catch up on blogs. It’s been hard the last few days because of work and all.  I didn’t get up until almost 11 this morning.  I couldn’t believe I slept so long.  Well, I’m off to get ready for work.

Everyone knows that I follow ww.  Well, normally I have no problems using all of my points.  I know it’s due to eating out.  I’ve not ate out for three days now and am finding it hard to use all my points.  I’m supposed to use all of them.  However, I left three points on Sunday, 4 points yesterday, and today I didn’t eat breakfast and with lunch and what I packed for supper (including the snacks) I’ll have 21 points left.  Ok,  which translates that if I want a snack I can have one.  I may just have to get me a candy bar.  Yummy!!  Most candy bars are only 5 points so i’ll still have 16 points left.  I don’t like to leave that many points so I don’t know what I’ll do.  I don’t like eating when I’m not hungry which I am not.  I forced myself to eat lunch which was 1 cup of chili with 5 crackers which was 6 points.  I only ate half of it which was only 3 points.    Oh well, at least I am meeting my nutritional guidelines except for the oil.  I’ve been drinking my water and right now work is my exercise!

I go back to 8 hours today. Yeah!  The only good thing is that I can complete my work which I don’t feel like I’ve been able to do with 4 hours.  I have a trainee with me tonite so that is good.  The nice thing about work has been that I’ve been able to get back into gear without much trouble.  I thought after being off for 8 weeks that it would feel like starting all over again.  However, it hasn’t been.  I’ve not had much trouble doing what I’m supposed to do.  I even caught up all of my inservices.  Tonite will be a test for my foot.  I’m on a six day stretch as well and that really sucks. It’s followed by three days off so I’m not going to complain to much.

We didn’t get as much snow last night as we were supposed to.  However, I guess we are supposed to get a lot tonite. We’ll see.  I hope not.   I ended up driving home in rain last night so that wasn’t to bad.  We did get enough snow for me to have to leave early for work so I can drive slow and still make it on time.

Don’t forget the Biggest Loser couples is on tonite.  I have it set to record so I’ll watch it tonite when I get home.  I find the show very inspirational.   I know I need all the inspiration I can get. 

I hope everyone is starting their New Year off right. Good luck! 

Goodbye 2007!!!  Hello 2008!!!!  Happy New Year everyone!  Let’s make this our year!  Let’s lose that weight and make the best possible lifestyle changes!  Leave the diets behind.   Let’s make the new and improved us!!  Look forward and not behind!