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I’m not feeling so well today.  I called off work.   It’s a good way to stay on plan though. LOL!!!  I’m feeling better with my attitude though.  Thanks to all the comments that I got yesterday.  I like the approach that you all took.  I don’t want the standard you’ll do better tomorrow comments.  I want the ok you didn’t do this right and let’s try it this way approach.  Does this make sense.  There is always tomorrow but tomorrow never comes.  I want to make positive changes today.  I want a kick in the butt.  Of course, I want to be told when I do something right because with constructive criticism comes praise for well doing.  This is why I have always liked this site.  People aren’t afraid to help and you all do it in such a way that isn’t degrading.  I appreciate you all.  I will do better and make the weight loss happen.  I’m currently weighing 247.8.  No specific goals except to lose.

I”m ashamed to say that I’ve gained almost 10 pounds back since I’ve been on here last.  It really sucks. I had to quit ww due to gas prices.  I’m at school full time and it’s going well. I work full time and it’s going well also.  My marriage is a little rocky now.  We won’t go into our anniversary disaster or the dealings with it.

I just know that I haven’t seemed to be able to get my act together. I eat without thinking.  Grabbing a mt dew is not unusual.  I could easily grab a water but I don’t.  I feel drained majority of the time.  Emotionally and physically.  I feel like I’m falling apart at the time and it sucks. I know my time is spread thin.  I need to get away but can’t afford to.  I’m just frustrated with life right now and it sucks.  I feel like I’ve failed.  I am letting myself down, my family, and Steph down.  I want to get back to doing good like I was.