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Ok, I survived my first semester of nursing school.  I passed all classes with A’s and B’s.  It sure was a long semester. Ok, no weight loss to speak of but I’m still at where I was when I started classes this semester.   I can’t complain to much. I’m off for a month now and I’m going to work on making things right.  I’m going to limit eating out.  It’s what killed me during the semester.   I’m going to take full advantage of my time off.  I’m going to try to lose 10 pounds this month.  I think with hard work and determination I can do it.

I finally feel like I’m somewhat back in control.  It’s been a long time coming.  Maybe because I’m getting a week away from the end of the semester.  It’s very possible.  I’m walking again which really helps.  Heck, I’m thinking about getting up early in the morning to take a small walk.  Wow, did I just say that?  LOL!!  Yes, I did.  I’ll let you know later if I actually do or not.  I’m doing better food wise.  I’m not perfect but I’m getting better and back to counting my points.  I’ve got a little ways to go but I see only good things from here on out.  I can do this!

I’m super excited now.  My mother in law is back to walking with me and boy does it make a huge difference.  We walked for almost an hour today.  It’s nice to have someone to talk to. The walk doesn’t feel like exercise. I am so happy right now.  We are going to do it again tomorrow. I’m also going to shoot for a second walk tomorrow if I can get it in.  The weather is beautiful. Work is better.  I’m passing both of my classes with B’s.  Life is good.  I haven’t felt this good in weeks so I’m pretty psyched.  Ok, I’m off to do homework. 

It’s been a while since I blogged on here.  I gained .6 pounds like week after a rough week.  It’s okay though.  I thought it was going to be far worse.  It really helped me rethink things over though.  Steph and I were talking on the way to our ww meeting about exercise and how important it is.  Then, the topic of the meeting was exercise and the excuses we make.  It sure hit the spot and helped to reenergizie me.  It may take me a long time to lose this weight  and I’m going to have my ups and downs BUT I will not quit!!!  I’m going to put in an extra effort this week.  It’s hard with school, work, and family.  Stress is definetely catching up to me even physically.  I’ve had canker sores on my tongue this week (they are gone now), heart palpitations (these were scary but not painful), and my period is late. LOL!!  ON top of the earthquake, it’s been a weird week. LOL!!  I have to lose this weight and I have to work hard at doing what I’m supposed to do.  It’s doable. Small changes this week.  I will drink water NO dew and NO cupcakes.  I am going to lose at least 1 pound next weigh in.  OH yeah, no more missing meetings.  They are way to important.

Okay, the last time I blogged.  I had gained 6 pounds. I know! Ouch!  Last week I lost 2.8 pounds of the 6 and I lost 1 more pound this week.  At least, I’m going in the right direction.  I’m feeling more human now and dealing better with the stress.  I still have some work to do on my care plan.  I’ve learned though that if I’m not in the mood to study at one particular moment to do something else.  It helps me save from beng overwhelmed and I’m getting things done.  I’ve not ever turned in an assignment late so I’m not going to worry.  I’m doing really good at taking food to work for supper.  It really helps with control.  This week I’m going to work on making better choices when I eat out.  I’m also going to work on getting water in.  Next week I’ll work on my health guidelines.  I’m taking it a small step at a time.  I am trying to not burn out and get overwhelmed.  I’m bound and determined to accomplish all of my goals.  I want to look back on all of my hardwork and go “I DID IT”!  It will be so empowering.

I’m doing much better.  Exercise is still not going good but I think my job is a lot of exercise. I”m on my feet for most of the night.  Work was pretty good last night.  Hopefully, it’ll be good again tonite.  I’ll keep my fingers crossed.  Food is going pretty good.  I’m pretty much staying within my point range.  Steph and I are talking about changing from the flex to the core plan after I get out of classes. I can’t take anymore changes now.  I’m managing to get my studying done for school but boy is it hard. LOL!!  I put it off all last week and am trying to cram it all in now.   I will survive. I have a quiz tomorrow in lab.  3 tests on Thursday.  I have a math test that I have to pass with an 80% or higher.  I do feel I’m ready for it.  I’m pretty good at math. I just have to remember the little details like the 0 before the decimal point and labeling my problem.  I then have a test in medical surgical lecture and pharmacology.  I still need to study more for both of them.  I’ll survive the tests. 

Well,  I hope you are all doing good.  I”m looking to have a good weigh in next Saturday. I’ll hopefully lose at least half of the  6 pounds that I gained back. 

I didn’t weigh in yesterday so I don’t have a weight update.  My son had a wrestling tourney so I went to watch it instead of attending the meeting. I will go next week for sure. I had a three day  weekend and loved it. I refreshed my thinking and that worked wonders for me.  Steph and I took a girls night out last night.  WHile we didn’t do anything major, we did enjoy each other’s company.  It felt good to get out of our houses without the stress of life. 

I was going to blow off today and just worry about laundry and homework.  I was doing good on both .  The weather is nice outside. I was making up so many excuses not to go for a walk.  My husband called me on it and convinced me to go for a walk.  I ended up walking quite a ways into the country.  It was so nice.  I cleared my head.   I thought about life in general, work, school, and my weight loss.  I came to some great realizations.  For example, do I really believe that life will ever be stress free.  WHo am I kidding?  I have to learn how to deal with it and make my lifestyle work.  I also need to learn to get my butt up in the morning so I can exercise and get things done.  I’m going to do this.  Life is hectic right now but I have to take care of me.  No one else is going to do it for me. It’s up to me.

I’m absolutely loving the nice weather.  I already took one walk and will take another one after Days of Our lives is over. I’m really loving my day off. It’s refreshing and helping me stay on track tremendously.  I am enjoying not having to worry about school even though I’ve got tons of stuff that I should be working on.  I will work on it starting Sunday. I’m relaxing for today and have a wrestling tourney tomorrow. 

I’m feeling more motivated now then ever.  I was really screwing up there for a while but that is in the past.  I just have to look forward and not backwards.  I have a birthday in a couple of weeks.  No plans.  We very rarely celebrate my birthday. Last year I buried my grandmother on my birthday and I have school that day. I did request it off of work but it won’t make much of a difference.   I’m looking forward to my 34th year.  I’m going to make it my best year in years. 

Ok, the last blog was a small bit of what is going on in my life.  School is going okay.  I’m on spring break this week and enjoying that aspect of it.  I just started a 3 day weekend.  I really should do some studying and probably will on Sunday but not tomorrow or Saturday.  I’m going to take the time to breathe.  It is a lot harder than I ever imagined but I will do it.  Things are starting to fall into place as far as how the job goes and that makes it easier.

I then started a new job a couple of weeks ago.  It’s  a lot harder then most of the other jobs that I did. I really don’t like it.  However, I’ve never quit a job after two weeks so I’m going to keep plugging away.  It’s always short staffed and there is never enough aides or time to do waht needs to be done with the residents and it’s sad.  The state board of health is there this week and that has been tough but I’m glad they are there.  Maybe they will straighten the place up.   I will stick it out until I get my LPN license and then I will get a job closer to home and on day shift.  It’s hard now because I don’t get to see my family. 

The weather here is finally warming up and I’m enjoying every minute of it.  I’m going to definetely go walking tomorrow.  I am hoping that I have a loss this weekend. I don’t expect the whole 6 pounds to be gone but I do hope that that I can at least lose a couple of them.

Okay,  last week’s weigh in was good and bad. LOL!!  I realized what I thought was a .6 pound gain the week prior was actually a .6 pound loss.  However, last week’s weigh in really nixed that.  I gained 6.3 pounds last week.  I’m happy to say that I’m doing better this week by staying on plan.  We live and we learn.  I had a girl ask me last night at work when I was getting ready to go to lunch if I was going out. I told her no because I brought food with me.  She told me that they need to break me of that. I informed her that I was on weight watchers and if I didn’t follow the plan that I was throwing 40 bucks a month away.  I’ve never looked at it that way. It’s true though.  I’m doing much better. I really need to get the activity going.  It’s a nice week this week. I’m on spring break from school and can’t get my behind out of bed when I need to.  My foot is hurting and that isn’t helping. However, I’m off for the next three days so it’ll help me tremendously.  I’m going to lose this weight.  I will do this.