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Okay, the last time I blogged.  I had gained 6 pounds. I know! Ouch!  Last week I lost 2.8 pounds of the 6 and I lost 1 more pound this week.  At least, I’m going in the right direction.  I’m feeling more human now and dealing better with the stress.  I still have some work to do on my care plan.  I’ve learned though that if I’m not in the mood to study at one particular moment to do something else.  It helps me save from beng overwhelmed and I’m getting things done.  I’ve not ever turned in an assignment late so I’m not going to worry.  I’m doing really good at taking food to work for supper.  It really helps with control.  This week I’m going to work on making better choices when I eat out.  I’m also going to work on getting water in.  Next week I’ll work on my health guidelines.  I’m taking it a small step at a time.  I am trying to not burn out and get overwhelmed.  I’m bound and determined to accomplish all of my goals.  I want to look back on all of my hardwork and go “I DID IT”!  It will be so empowering.

I’m doing much better.  Exercise is still not going good but I think my job is a lot of exercise. I”m on my feet for most of the night.  Work was pretty good last night.  Hopefully, it’ll be good again tonite.  I’ll keep my fingers crossed.  Food is going pretty good.  I’m pretty much staying within my point range.  Steph and I are talking about changing from the flex to the core plan after I get out of classes. I can’t take anymore changes now.  I’m managing to get my studying done for school but boy is it hard. LOL!!  I put it off all last week and am trying to cram it all in now.   I will survive. I have a quiz tomorrow in lab.  3 tests on Thursday.  I have a math test that I have to pass with an 80% or higher.  I do feel I’m ready for it.  I’m pretty good at math. I just have to remember the little details like the 0 before the decimal point and labeling my problem.  I then have a test in medical surgical lecture and pharmacology.  I still need to study more for both of them.  I’ll survive the tests. 

Well,  I hope you are all doing good.  I”m looking to have a good weigh in next Saturday. I’ll hopefully lose at least half of the  6 pounds that I gained back. 

I didn’t weigh in yesterday so I don’t have a weight update.  My son had a wrestling tourney so I went to watch it instead of attending the meeting. I will go next week for sure. I had a three day  weekend and loved it. I refreshed my thinking and that worked wonders for me.  Steph and I took a girls night out last night.  WHile we didn’t do anything major, we did enjoy each other’s company.  It felt good to get out of our houses without the stress of life. 

I was going to blow off today and just worry about laundry and homework.  I was doing good on both .  The weather is nice outside. I was making up so many excuses not to go for a walk.  My husband called me on it and convinced me to go for a walk.  I ended up walking quite a ways into the country.  It was so nice.  I cleared my head.   I thought about life in general, work, school, and my weight loss.  I came to some great realizations.  For example, do I really believe that life will ever be stress free.  WHo am I kidding?  I have to learn how to deal with it and make my lifestyle work.  I also need to learn to get my butt up in the morning so I can exercise and get things done.  I’m going to do this.  Life is hectic right now but I have to take care of me.  No one else is going to do it for me. It’s up to me.

I’m absolutely loving the nice weather.  I already took one walk and will take another one after Days of Our lives is over. I’m really loving my day off. It’s refreshing and helping me stay on track tremendously.  I am enjoying not having to worry about school even though I’ve got tons of stuff that I should be working on.  I will work on it starting Sunday. I’m relaxing for today and have a wrestling tourney tomorrow. 

I’m feeling more motivated now then ever.  I was really screwing up there for a while but that is in the past.  I just have to look forward and not backwards.  I have a birthday in a couple of weeks.  No plans.  We very rarely celebrate my birthday. Last year I buried my grandmother on my birthday and I have school that day. I did request it off of work but it won’t make much of a difference.   I’m looking forward to my 34th year.  I’m going to make it my best year in years. 

Ok, the last blog was a small bit of what is going on in my life.  School is going okay.  I’m on spring break this week and enjoying that aspect of it.  I just started a 3 day weekend.  I really should do some studying and probably will on Sunday but not tomorrow or Saturday.  I’m going to take the time to breathe.  It is a lot harder than I ever imagined but I will do it.  Things are starting to fall into place as far as how the job goes and that makes it easier.

I then started a new job a couple of weeks ago.  It’s  a lot harder then most of the other jobs that I did. I really don’t like it.  However, I’ve never quit a job after two weeks so I’m going to keep plugging away.  It’s always short staffed and there is never enough aides or time to do waht needs to be done with the residents and it’s sad.  The state board of health is there this week and that has been tough but I’m glad they are there.  Maybe they will straighten the place up.   I will stick it out until I get my LPN license and then I will get a job closer to home and on day shift.  It’s hard now because I don’t get to see my family. 

The weather here is finally warming up and I’m enjoying every minute of it.  I’m going to definetely go walking tomorrow.  I am hoping that I have a loss this weekend. I don’t expect the whole 6 pounds to be gone but I do hope that that I can at least lose a couple of them.

Okay,  last week’s weigh in was good and bad. LOL!!  I realized what I thought was a .6 pound gain the week prior was actually a .6 pound loss.  However, last week’s weigh in really nixed that.  I gained 6.3 pounds last week.  I’m happy to say that I’m doing better this week by staying on plan.  We live and we learn.  I had a girl ask me last night at work when I was getting ready to go to lunch if I was going out. I told her no because I brought food with me.  She told me that they need to break me of that. I informed her that I was on weight watchers and if I didn’t follow the plan that I was throwing 40 bucks a month away.  I’ve never looked at it that way. It’s true though.  I’m doing much better. I really need to get the activity going.  It’s a nice week this week. I’m on spring break from school and can’t get my behind out of bed when I need to.  My foot is hurting and that isn’t helping. However, I’m off for the next three days so it’ll help me tremendously.  I’m going to lose this weight.  I will do this.

I just wanted to come on and update on me.   First, I want to stress something to all the parents out there a very important matter.  Have you discussed secrets with your children?  You know letting them know what is a secret they can keep and one they have to tell. I know you think it will never come into play with your child but believe me it can.  My son came to me last night telling me his friend was cutting herself.  He did the right thing by telling me. I emailed the teacher and she is trying to get the girl some help.  My son even talked to the principal who applauded him for doing what was right.  We also explained to him the consequences of telling but that they far outweighed the risks of not telling especially with cutting.  Talk to your children because you just may save a life.  If your child does come to you with it, please do something. Get the ball rolling. 

Ok, enoug about that. I gained .2 pounds last week.  I’m not surprised.  It’s been really hectic with my new job and all.  I’m trying to keep up with everything and my sanity and I think i’m losing the sanity. LOL!!!  I’m back on track diet wise so I’m happy about that.  It does make a difference when you journal. I didn’t journal last week and did awful.  I am journaling this week and will hopefully do better.

I hope you all are doing good.

I expected nursing school  to be hard and the first five weeks with just the two classes, pharmacology and fundamentals of nursing was difficult but not unbearable.  Now,  I’m done with fundamentals but replaced it with three classes. I still have pharmacology and by the grace of God, I got a B on the test that I crammed for yesterday. I have med surg lab on Wednesdays, med surg lecture on Thursdays, and clinicals all day on Friday.  We have a test every week in lecture and next week we have another test in pharmacology.  I also have an exam in lab which will be interesting considering that i didn’t make lab this week due to being sick.  Clinicals is going to be interesting.  Jury is still out on it.  The good thing about clinicals is that we are only getting 30 min for lunch and we are not allowed to leave so we have to bring our lunches.  It’s better then eating out.  I also start my new job next week. Ugh!  I’m not sure I’ll survive this year. I know I will but it’s going to be hard.  Things are going to be rough but I can do it.  At least, I hope I can.

Finally, I am feeling better.  No energy but feeling almost human.  I still have a sore, cough, and runny nose but I do feel alert.  I am also back to eating. However, not eating right.  This is what always happens when I get sick.  I am trying to figure out how to go to ww on Saturday and still make it to my son’s wrestling tourney which is at a school between kokmo and peru.  MY ww meeting is in kokomo.  I live in Peru.  I may be able to make it just to weigh in so we’ll see what happens.  I really need this meeting because I didn’t go last week and it helps me get back on track. I expect a small loss but not as good as it could be.  I always get sick lose but gain some back.   I will try hard to get back on track tomorrow. 

I went to the doctor today.  I have the flu.  Surprise!  He gave me some cough sryup and anti inflammatory medicine for fever and pain.  I’m feeling somewhat better today but totally drained.  He won’t let me go to school tomorrow.  It sucks because it’s the first day of my lab class.  I hope I don’t miss to much.  A friend of mine who had the class on Monday let me know a little bit of what I missed.  I’m not to do anything except rest and drink fluids.

Being sick does help with weight loss.  The doctor scales weighed me at 235.  This number is higher then what the ww scales would read because I was wearing my red sweater and shoes that I wouldn’t wear at ww.  There of course has been no exercise for me this week.  Steph isn’t feeling good either. 

Well, I’m going to get off of here.  I hope you all are doing good.  I’m going to rest and tomorrow I’m going to cram for my pharmacology test on Thursday. Yikes!!!